This is a very random blog

I have been jobless for five months now. Which means inconsequential pieces of news pick my interest, like: 'Shraddha Kapoor becomes the third most-followed Bollywood actor on Instagram'. She now has over 50 million followers. For someone who has a forgettable filmography except maybe an Aashiqui 2, Chhichhore, ABCD 2 and Stree (I'm being kind with the latter two) and a vapid personality, why is Shraddha Kapoor more popular on Instagram than Katrina Kaif and Anushka Sharma? A mildly famous subreddit happened to be discussing Instagram behaviours of stars and got me curious. Five days ago, it was reported that the only two Bollywood stars ahead of her were Priyanka Chopra and Deepika Padukone. If numbers are to go by, Shraddha has inched (or millimetred) past Deepika in the last couple of days and has now reached the second spot! Now Deepika's PR, for anyone who feeds on entertainment news for breakfast would know, is intense. Best wife? Deepika. Best actress ever...

You know that time between 2 am and 4 am when sleep betrays you, so you lie down on your  soft pillow thinking of every poor decision you've ever made? That's my whole life now. All my decisions seem poor. I've been the July 2020 version of Sachin Pilot since 2009! 

I finally attended a social gathering wearing a mask and maintaining social distance. It's a blessing meeting people these days because you skip exchanging pleasantries. "Oh, aap hain maine to mask mein pehchana hi nahi." The worst part is, of course, the fear of catching COVID-19. Somewhere in between falls the question/remark that I've lately begun to avoid like the plague (or COVID-19). 'Why do you look so weak? How did you lose that much weight? This lockdown has been really hard on you, huh?' I've struggled with weight issues all my life. There was a time in 2015 when I could have painted public toilets across Noida with 'Shruti Vajpayee has achieved her ideal weight' but it's been five years to that Shruti Vajpayee now. I can't tell you how much weight I've lost because I haven't bothered to weigh myself even though I have begun to fit into clothes I didn't think was possible in this lifetime (or another five years ...